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Thursday, 25 September 2014

I don’t even know if I can put it into words or explain what’s going on right now. I feel so fed up all the time, I want to cry and I feel if I do then everything will be better, but I can’t. 

My job used to make me so happy, it used to be so good, and then everyone left and things slowly started deteriorating. In 4 days time it will be my 1 year ‘anniversary’ at the company and it’s made me realise a lot. 

I’ve realised that I’ve become comfortable with my job and the people (as much as I hate it). I’ve realised that my anxiety is going to stop me succeeding and I just have to accept that. I’ve realised that I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing with my life or what direction I want to go in. I’ve realised that you’re probably going to be leaving me soon as well.

I don’t know where I’m going with this.

I just want to be happy and have things to look forward to.


I don’t want to have to have therapy again. 

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